Cabin Fever by Alex Dahl

Author:Alex Dahl [Dahl, Alex]
Language: eng
Format: epub
ISBN: 9781789544060
Publisher: Head of Zeus

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The following Friday we had another tough session.

That day, you asked me to speak directly to myself as a child, to reconnect with that inherent goodness all children have and to consider whether I could find empathy with the little girl I once was. It didn’t work like that for me because the little girl I saw was worthless and dirty, like a thieving street urchin. You were moved by the way I spoke of myself and you asked whether I would be willing to consider from whose point of view I was observing myself as a child. Could it be that it wasn’t my own perception at all? What child perceives herself as inherently bad and unlovable? Could it be that this was how I imagined my father saw me, as a way to comprehend the profound rejection of his departure? And if so, could it be that my interpretation of this was simply wrong and entirely unrooted in reality?

Your words hit me so hard it felt as though you prodded me with a searing prong, as though you knew me better than I could ever know myself. I felt at your mercy. But back then I felt at everyone’s mercy. And now, here we are; the tables have turned, and it is you who are at my mercy, and it is me using all of myself and everything you’ve taught me, to help you. You see, Kristina, nothing is as it seems. Sometimes our worlds, which look beautiful, are actually on fire.

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